The 3D's

No. This is not about 3D as in three-dimensional thingies.

I have decided to write about my own 3 D's, which I am experiencing while on vacation.

Dilemma

I suppose, being a mom and a wife requires so much: time, energy, wits and luck (anything you can add?). Anyway, here are the things that keep on nagging me about my first D:

1. My cooking skills is being challenged. Staying at home also means being responsible for the meals of the day. I really don't care about my breakfast (which I usually skip) or lunch. I am not too picky when I'm at home because I am naturally-born lazzzzzzzzy (I just felt the need to emphasize it with too much Z's). I usually eat what was left behind from the other night or just pop out some instant noodles. So the thing is, dinner is always a dilemma to me. I know I can cook but I'm losing the creativity in cooking. What I mean is, I can't think of any fresh idea to cook for dinner. It's always giving me a headache. I have searched the internet and the more it gives me options that are not viable due to limited variety of veggies and meat available here. I'm not sure if this is just me, making this whole thing as a pain to my own neck.
2. Having a nanny is good even while I'm on vacation because it gives me time to be all by myself. Some times I do what a good mom does when she's at home: taking care of her child. But this makes me think that the nanny is paid on full salary while I AM DOING HER JOB.  So I give her the full task on her hands: changing nappies, feeding, sleeping, playing, bathing etc. I, on the other hand, have the time of my life watching Glee marathons and Survivor Philippines re-runs. And that makes me feel GUILTY. I know that the presence of the nanny is of no-excuse because being a mom needs no day-off. I just realized that I need some time-outs just to reflect, refresh and re-energize. And that's the time my nanny comes in to help me out with KA.
3. I am super glad that hubby got a job and right now, he's really busy with work, work, work. But so much things have changed since he got the job. He works in Dubai, which is the neighboring emirate of our residence, Sharjah. Ideally, going to the other emirates takes only 15-20 minutes of your time. But since traffic jams have become a normal day-to-day thing on weekdays, travel time is up to 45 minutes, at the least. And that's just in the morning. Come evening time, traffic is heavier even until 11pm. I myself travel for one hour and 15 minutes, at the least, during the evening when going home from work. And here's the dilemma, hubby stays at the office until 9pm and gets home by around 10pm or past that. For hubby, this means less time for me and KA. Plus, he takes home some work too! By the time we are down at 12, we even haven't talked that much about our plans of moving out in a new flat. And this takes me to my fourth dilemma.
4. We can't move out until January. I just knew it! I know that one of the reasons why this is not pushing through is because of the lack of planning and communication in our small family. I plan all the time. As in, with most of my spare time, I keep a file of our budgets, expenses and income. I am an accountant and I just can't help being one even in our domestic premises. Hubby is also an accountant but he's a guy and I do understand that he's not into this kind of things, budgeting and all those things. I have to admit it. I do get disappointed in him sometimes because of his lack of interest. Whenever I bring out the subject of moving out, he'll always tell me that we are not yet ready financially. When I give him the option that we can take a bank loan, he'll tell me that with the loan money, instead of getting our own place, why not use it to partially pay out our property (which was purchased through the financing of a bank back home in the Philippines). And now, he's telling me that if I am really keen in moving out to a new place, why not search a cheap one in Dubai, and that is just impossible. Did I say that a 1-bedroom flat in Dubai will cost us at least forty grand in one year? Fact: A one-bedroom flat here in Sharjah will only cost us around twenty-five grand.

Disaster

I hope that my litany doesn't turn you off in reading my blog. This is just my second D but I'll keep it short and simple. Haha.

1. In the duration of my vacation, there were already two instances where dinner was a big DISASTER. The first one, if I remember it right, was about something I cooked which was matabang (means bland). Hubby and I have different taste buds and it freaks me out sometimes because when I cook the meal of the day, it tastes so salty for me already. But when hubby comes to taste it, it's still bland. What to do? The second one was when I bought some frozen tilapia. I was so excited in preparing it grilled-stuffed-style. I have minced onions, bell peppers and tomatoes and mixed them all up with soy sauce, some oyster sauce, pepper and salt. I stuffed them laboriously inside the tilapia bellies and fried them. The smell was just really nice and I thought that dinner will be a perfect one. Dinner time came and hubby got the taste of my masterpiece. I just can't forget the fact that he just tasted it once or twice, then never again. Hubby's Reason: frozen tilapia doesn't taste as good as the fresh ones. I gave the rest of the disaster-pieces (there were 3 tilapias) to our flatmates. I did not eat one because it just hurt me big time. (By the way, while I'm writing this, hubby gets a glimpse of this and he's just laughing it out. It's okay. That was already behind us. Although now, I really get anxious with what I am cooking for the next dinner meals since that last event gave me a phobia in cooking. Thanks for losing my confidence.)

 Delight

Oh, how I long to be on this subject since my headstart gave me a flashback of the not-so-good things in my life. But this third D is just as simple and short because that's just how I relish the delight I have in them.

1. I did say that having a nanny while I am on vacation is a good thing. That delights me, a lot! Else, I won't be able to handle KA all on my own. Who will do the laundry, the dishes, the cooking? The nanny just takes care of KA and that's it. I'm afraid that if I ask her to do all the above, she'll ask for an increment. And I just can't.
2. Glee marathons. I just love Glee. I enjoy the singing and all the drama behind it. I'm a frustrated singer but I love music. I need Glee to update me with my interests in life which is music. Ever since I have come in this country, got a job, got pregnant and gave birth, I have had no extra time to update our songlist in our laptop. Did you know that I don't even have an MP3? I know that Glee may not update me with all the music trends going on around the globe but it's enough for me now.
3. Survivor Philippines Celebrity Showdown. I'm rooting for Aubrey Miles because I think that she plays it well. When I can't watch the live telecast through this site or this site, I look for the uploaded ones and watch them on my time-outs with KA.
4. And lastly, but certainly not the least, what most delights me is spending time with KA. He has grown taller and heavier but I still carry him when I lull him to sleep. It's hardwork but I just take it as a regular exercise: dancing him in my arms till he falls asleep. It's bliss when I look on his face, innocently beautiful in his slumber.

Ooopppssss! It's past 1am already. I'm still wide awake. So is KA. Hubby is already sleepy and we still need to wake up early for KA's Friday morning walk in the park. Wish us goodluck there.

Happy weekend everyone!